Kuman di seberang laut nampak, Gajah di depan mata tak nampak

The title for this post is kinda long and it's in bahasa Malaysia (or is it bahasa melayu ?) but let me translate it from bahasa to English. Direct translation would be "Germs across the seas can be seen, but elephants in front of the eyes are not seen". Basically it means, we can see all the fault in others even the very small things but we are totally oblivious to our own fault.

It's pretty easy to listen to gossip and make our own 'theory' about it. And sometimes we gossip around, just to have fun without realizing that even we don't really mean it but if the person itself heard what was said about him/her, they would be hurt by it.

What compelled me to write this, well I was on Facebook reading my friends status as usual *evil grin* Then my cousin post a link about some Sabahan famous personality. Well, I don't mind that but what struck me so hard is the comments people are saying. First we do not know the whole story of what has happen, and we only know what the news wrote about them. And most of us know that the news like to exaggerate and hide the truth especially juicy gossip about famous personality especially. And secondly who are we to judge other people, only God have the rights to judge.

I was incense actually, but then I told myself who am I to get mad at them. Ironic isn't it. Well, I'm not that perfect too. OOhhh I love to gossip last time, I love to put other people down. It feels so good to say how terrible this person A is cause it makes me feel good. That's why people like to gossip, it empower the gossiper. It makes them feel that they are the cream on top of all the people that we are above them. Just to hide the fact that we are also full of faults.

And it took me to really fall down hard from the top of the pedestal to realize that I was actually a hypocrite asshole. And that's why… For those people out there that like to talk about others please look into yourself and ask yourself one question "Am I perfect?" If yes, then do go ahead and talk and degrade about other people. If no then it's better to keep those thoughts in yourself, you never know when karma will comes back and bite you on your ass.

And to avoid karma biting me again on my ass, whenever I start to gossip and talk about others, I have to remind myself of the below saying;

Kuman di seberang laut nampak, Gajah di depan mata tak nampak

 

 

The days before Christmas...

I am excited about the coming Christmas although there is that one major issue that seem to damp my excitement. But never the less I am pretty excited for Christmas this year as after so long I would be celebrating it with someone special *big mushy grin* Okkk, let’s move on before I start my endless chatter of that.

Most everyone I know are looking forward to Christmas, the endless status updates on FB, twitters, blogs and phone calls. Yes, I know I communicate with my friends and loved ones through the “Virtual World”, well if you’re living hundreds of miles far from them you would be like me.

Well back to the main point, most everyone I know can’t wait for Christmas day but there are those people that don’t even think of the holidays or can’t even look forward to spending the holidays with their loved ones.

Just last night, 29 people lost their lives on the way back from holidaying in Cameron well minus the three dead Malaysian which was working as the tourist guide and driver. And the murdered 14 year old girl that went out to meet a friend a she told the parent. Or the few lost kids and their family, their picture is still on the board of missing people (do please try to read the lost kid poster, and try to at least remember the face, because we might pass by them someday). Or the child beggars all around the world, those people that are on their deathbed, and those that don’t even have enough to feed themselves and their families, the people that lost their jobs, the soldier stationed at some faraway foreign country.

And by just by thinking of those people, it kind of made my problem looks like nothing. I am so blessed with so many good things and when we have all those things we tend to forget that we have them and concentrate on that ONE problem. As I have been doing these past few days, I am particularly am getting so angry with someone. In my angry mind I’m bent on demonizing him and thinking him as a heartless SOB *pardon for the word* that I forgot that he is not always are like that and that there is a reason as to why he acted that way. A quote from Randy Pauch;

Find the best in everybody. Just keep waiting no matter how long it takes. No one is all evil. Everybody has a good side, just keep waiting, it will come out.

And yes, I’m not planning of being an idiot but I’ll give him chance until I got a better offer from some other company.

So be merry during this few days before Christmas, don’t be stressed out if you have not finish your Christmas Shopping yet, or getting headache on money disappearing so fast during this time or not being able to go back to your hometown as there are people that are not as blessed as each of us are :)

All I want for Christmas

All I want for Christmas is;

To shower my family with gifts and make them happy

But unfortunately, I could not. Why did you not let me go, when I broach the topic with you. Why did you hold me to stay with the company even after I have explained that I could not bear being in this position anymore. And why the BLOODY tarnation I kesian with you so much that I stayed and still work like a mull where I can be much more happier going back to my own hometown.

Easy answer: I'm an idiot

What makes you happy?

Forgive me as I have intentionally been ignoring to blog for the past few days (or week). First of all, I was sick like hell and secondly I wanted to post something that you guys will think "Hmmm, I like reading this" and not think it's a waste of your time to read. :) Well, below is something which I feel that I should love to share it with y'all. I totally needed it today, a small push of motivation and I though maybe just maybe it might help to cheer you guys up too.

It isn’t what you have,
or who you are,
or where you are,
or what you are doing,
or what you are going to do,
that makes you happy or unhappy.

Its what you think about. - PravsWorld.com

I tend to forget that my happiness does not depends on material thing and what we have or doing. It all depend on my own way of thinking. So starting from this second, I am happy today cause today God has blessed me with lots and tons of wonderful things and I am still much much much more lucky than many other people in the world..

So guys, be happy today!!! Happy monday!!! And whoooopie, less than a week away I'm gonna say hello KK again. :)

Shoo shoo.. go far away you well-wisher..

Fat? Dieting? Exercise? Size 0? Well I've been running away from the truth for so long now. I have gotten myself totally fat. Although I don't mind it that much, but it's getting to my nerve when people keep on telling or "advising" me to lose it. That I'm starting to think that maybe there are something wrong with me, and i start to be so conscious of myself. Geh! I bloody hate that..

you better lose, you look more better with less weight

Atukoi, sia ndak kenal suda ko. brapa lama suda kita ndak jumpa.. 10 thn? ka itu tinguk mcm sia masi slim

Astaga, so fat you have become.. I don't recognize you, what happen? Why don't you lose weight?

How about trying this [insert here example: herballife, etc, etc, etc]. It can help you to lose weight

You know it has been on the tip of my tongue, to say "shove your advice into your bloody a**". Thank goodness I still can laugh and just smile. It is bloody wrong to gain weight, is there a rule that says that I need to be so reed thin to be happy in life.

And yes, I do admit that there are circumstances where I do wish I could be back to my thin body that I had last time. And that was because when people start to maybe innocently making fun of me, that sounded so bloody annoying and on the borderline of insult?

Well to the "well wisher", I am perfectly happy with myself. I don't need to be thin as a lidi to make myself happy. I do want to lose maybe around 10kg, just to be on the "HEALTHY" side. That was recommended by the doctor to me, it's not like I do not want to lose some weight . But I just hate it when people start to tell me to lose weight so that I will look much better. Cause it does sound like you are telling me that right now I don't look better... Pish and posh... And worst is hearing someone advising you on steps and ways to lose weight especially when you're not interested in listening. Man/Woman, I know it's totally easy to say. But I have my own way okay, what works for you does not mean it will work for me. By gawd sake, we have different body... So shoo shoo shoo far far away unless I asked you for advise....

And there are those already thin people that continuously annoy me with their statement of;

Alamak I cannot eat more, I'm getting fatter

Girl, do you know your neck bones are protruding too much, you bloody need the fat! And those already pretty and sexy girl, lamenting with a sad face "I'm getting fatter, I don't look good"... My goodness, go and get your self esteem... And some of those are my close friends, so I can just say to them directly "You want to see fat, look at me this is fat, you are thin so stop your yammering about being fat. Be thankful you're thin like that"...

So to the well wisher out there... Stop your good advise, all I need is your acceptance and stop your pitying. By gawd I'm not a freak, and I am totally happy with myself ok. At least I can accept me the way I am.