Lesson to Learn: Sometimes in trying to hurt others, we only hurt ourselves

Taking the time to blog, as I damn care about my work today. Lot's of bullshit happened today. Let's just say that it is just not my day. Still in the office wasting time, as some idiots which are total moronic people that are so bloody idiots that are superbly asshole are forcing us to work like we owe them millions of ringgit.

It is wasn't for my other friend who is together with me in this project, I damn care about this and would at home now resting. Sometimes I can't understand why there some people that are so self centered...

Bah! I couldn't and would not care less. As soon as I'm done with the project.. I bloody promised myself that I would not set another feet in this country. Working with them is like being a slave.

Well, can't wait for less than 3 week to pack up my thing and move out. And back to home sweet home, back to the durians, chu kiok, tuaran mee, bantal busuk at home, lai chee kang, laksa, kuew tiaw, dimsum, char siew pau and etc's...

Enough with the food, ending my complain with these inspiring story which I got from Pravsworld.com

Do Not Hurt Yourself

One night a snake while it was looking for food, entered a carpenter’s workshop.

The carpenter, who was a rather untidy man, had left several of his tools lying on the floor. One of them was a saw.

As the snake went round and round the shop, he climbed over the saw, which gave him a little cut.

At once, thinking that the saw was attacking him, he turned around and bit it so hard that his mouth started to bleed.

This made him very angry. He attacked again and again until the saw was covered with blood and seemed to be dead.

Dying from his own wounds, the snake decided to give one last hard bite then turned away. The next morning the carpenter was surprised to find a dead snake on his doorstep.

Lesson to Learn: Sometimes in trying to hurt others, we only hurt ourselves

Gawr... I bloody hate them

Let me say one thing...

I'm sick and tired working till late at night every bloody single day

Yes, dear. I'm still in the client office. Sitting practically doing nothing cause I was warned to not do anything while they are testing the bloody system. So here I am bored out my head of doing nothing. All I want right now is to be able to eat. I'm so hungry.. Totally raveneous that I may be able to eat anyone. And I wanted to stop at one of the restaurant cause I wanted to eat the cheese nachos...

Blah, and just now my PM was jokinglu saying to me that some client may be buying the bloody system and they were asking for me to go to Sri Lanka and Afghanistan.. And you know, that's is NOT even remotely resemble a funny joke...

Of all places, Afghanistan? Heck, give me Dubai, give me Singapore, give me Indonesia, give me Maldives, give me Italy, give me Canada, give me Japan... But not because I have something againdt Afghanistan, but well of course it's about safety. What else to be the issue. Even Sri Lanka sound like honey compare with Afghanistan.

Urgh, hungry... My stomach are starting to rumble and I so totally fed up with project. It's like being in a bad relationship that you got so fed-up of being treated so badly that you want out of the relationship. And I'm so totally feeling this way.. I hate this project.. Well actually the truth is I HATE THIS CLIENT... They are so riculously idiots who can't seem to understand, if they wanted to have a system changed so much.. Why don't you guys just go and build your own system from scratches... Gawrrrrr

The want to be be sefish

Another chapter of my life has closed. And it actually hurt. I can't be too selfish to still hold on to something that I can't commit and it would not be fair to someone if I still want to hold on to someone else even if he is a very precious friend. I want to be selfish, I want to be with someone who will share my life, my ups and down, the "till death do us part" thingy. And at the same time I don't want to let go of a friend that has been with me for so long, been with me when I was down in the gutter. But it is not fair to both of them, I had to let that friend go and never to look behind.

The worst thing, is that knowing that the decision I made, the wants I want, had hurt someone so nice. Someone who really care about me. Knowing that in order for me to be happy, I need to hurt him so badly. But it was inevitable, the wall that divided us was too huge.

So karul, stop being totally selfish. I have to look forward and move on, hoping that the future will bring me more happiness. And finally I feel that I have found something that will bring me tons of happiness. Chewah, gotta stop writing this totally emo post. But somehow I need to write things off my chest.

Well, Oh, That's the way it is
You gotta roll with the punches
That's the way it goes
You gotta bend when the wind blows
Well, That's the way it is
You gotta roll with the punches
That's the way it goes
You gotta bend when the wind blows
You live you learn
You crash and burn
It's hit or miss
And that's the way it is

Question that is sure to annoy anyone

Wanted to call my mom to ask bout something. And knowing me, if it's my mom that i want to talk with. I must talk to her.. And knowing her, it's a 50-50 chance that she will or will not pick up her phone. And was trying to call her the 10th time that i just gave up and called the house.

Got to know my mom and dad has gone out to attend some wedding at Kota Belud today. And I knew that I would be not be able to talk to my mom so I changed my target to my sis... She is a real gem, she is my de-stresses. It is just so bloody enjoyable to be able to annoyed her to the max *evil grin*

Well the conversation I had with her:

Sis: They gone out to a wedding?
Me: Where?
Sis: Kota Belud, I think.
Me: Why you're not sure?
Sis: Cause they said so
Me: Why did not you follow?
Sis: I don't want to
Me: Why do you not want to?
Sis: I don't want la
Me: Why?
Sis: Cause I'm lazy to go out
Me: Why are you lazy?
Sis: Hish, I don't want la....
Me: Why?

Mwahaha.... And she got so annoyed.. Ahhh bliss... :P

My advise to me

One advise...

NEVER EVER try to work till early in the morning and then go to sleep at 6AM in the morning and waking up at 7.30AM. Cause you would be in a very bad condition especially as you're not as young as you used to be

The weak customer chooses the understandable rack.

It's gonna be alright

I love this song since the first I heard it. By listening to it, I can bear all thing. And somehow it was kinda like a best kept secret I have. Something that I was not willing to share. But, good things are meant to be shared. And I hope that somehow, some stranger out there miraculously stumble upon my humble blog will take comfort listening to this song. As I have taken my comfort by listening to this over and over again especially during the worst time in my life and when I was really bloody doing something I should not have been doing...

Something to share before I share you the lyric...

The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing.[Zephaniah 3:17]

Well, here's the lyric. Songs by Dennis Jernigan, titled "It's gonna be alright"

It's gonna be alright, child
Even through the darkest night, child
I'll even use the darkness
To teach you how to hear Me
It's gonna be alright now
Even if you don't see how
I'll even use your failure
To help you to draw near Me

Hear Me. I am calling,
"Child, come falling deeper in love with Me."
Trust Me, you must let go
Or you will never know any deeper love in Me

It's gonna be alright here
If you will let Me hold your heart near
I'll even use your sorrows
To teach You how to love Me
It's gonna be alright, child
I'll hold you really close and tight child
I'll even use Your woundings
To help you know more of Me

Hear Me. I am calling,
"Child, come falling deeper in love with Me."
Trust Me, you must let go
Or you will never know any deeper love in Me

Why do you hold on to the things of your past
Let go and cling to Me and love that will last
How can you know Me if you do not trust My love
Let go! You'll find My love is more than enough

Become a better men according to 'if' by rudyard kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master,
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

Rudyard Kipling (1865-1936)

Just wanted to share this, I've always like this. Read it long time ago, like it but forgot it. Then found it again and fell in love with it again. And thought it would be nice to share it wit ya'all..

Bad day

The worst thing ever to wake up is too feel so down. Woke today up in a bad mood, and for goodness sake it's friday... I should rejoicing and junping with joy that it is friday. Even all of the sudden I don't feel like going back tomorrow to KK.

A friend of mine told me, "The best mood was fully used yesterday".. At least that brought out a tiny smile. It's so bloody annoying to be feeling this way, now i'm even annoyed at myself for feeling this way. Ger... Right now i'm stuck at finishing work here at some client site and all I want to do is go back. Lay down on my bed. And sleep the day away.

And no it is not PMS. Although I wish it was so I can blame on it. But i know it's not, cause I know the main reason for it. Maybe that is why people says to not be too happy as the God is jealous of it. :P Off me go to listen an annoying song. "Bad days" Let end this post with something I got from Pravs world

Lost Time Is Never Gained

Nobody will sympathize with a person
who constantly lets chances pass by
without making any efforts to salvage them.

We normally don't realize how important our loved and close ones are until they leave us,
and then we start regretting, which results in misery.

Lost time is NEVER gained again.

Men... sometimes there are some you just want to castrate

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Today I got some shocking news. And I'm literally annoyed to the MAX today. Well, as a friend the only thing I can do is be supportive of her and at the same time cursing the others (let just call them ***hole) to damnation. Well that's what a friends is for :) "Supportive". No matter what happen as long friends are there, then why should we bother with men. It's such an easy logic. And to you *u know who u are* this is a song dedicated to you, at least it's all done and it's over. It's much better now to move on... Aargh I really want to go and kick the *tut* out of the ***holes. Well it's the ***holes lost as they miss being with a great girl....

Let Him Fly

Ain't no talkin' to this man
Ain't no pretty other side
Ain't no way to understand the stupid words of pride
It would take an acrobat and I already tried all that
I'm gonna let him fly - mmm

Just that first verse of the song won me over... Damn, this song made me remember why I love the Dixie Chick and country song :P It's a simple song but damn meaningful



But the best verse ever in this song is

But you must always know
how long to stay and when to go

Once you learn the beauty of letting go, life gets much more sweeter as you will see the other sweet possibility that is out there. Rather than holding to something that could never be. Let Him Fly and be free :P hihihi

Well hope u guys enjoy it.. I for sure enjoy it bloody do much :P

And there ain't no talkin' to this man
He's been tryin' to tell me so
It took a while to understand
the beauty of just letting go
'Cause it would take an acrobat n'
I already tried all that

"I'm fat" bloody statement

Truthfully if I could, I would LOVE to knock the heads of everyone and yes including my dear friends and families. Why? I have enough of hearing from them saying or even read another status of them on FB about

Oh, I look so fat. I need to diet

while looking and commenting on their picture. Gawr!!!!!! If you're really fat I can ignore that although if you're complaining bout it for forever. I would love to kick you, and say "Yes you're fat. So get over it"

And I totally totally am so bloody annoyed when those thin reed people, says "I'm fat"... Again gawrrrrrr..... You want to see fat, look at me I'm fat and do you hear me complaining each and everytime. Gawrrrrrr....

It's amazing when those thin people start to say they are fat when they are not. Are they blind or what? It's so bloody annoying, thank goodness you're my friends or I'll be mocking you much worser than ever. But it's totally getting on my nerve. Why do you want to be so thin, I was thin once and I hated. Truth to be told it wasn't a pretty me to look at, all skin n bones.

I love seeing girl with some fat on her, well not too much but girls that is comfortable in their own skin are totally sexy for me. And imagine hugging someone so thin, isn't it like ewwwwww all bones poking here and there. Jeez, yes I do understand that we want to look good. But complaining when you're already looking so bloody good is mightily annoying. If you want people to praise you, by gawd ask it directly "Do I look good?".. Instead of fishing for reassurance by saying "Oh I look fat"... Hello, it's totally not sexy. As all you're potraying is that you're uncomfortable with your own self. Oh my goodness, I sound like a guy...

Song to share on this sunday

Going out in a while but I feel that I need to post this song to share with ya'all. It's such a bloody nice song, especially on a sunday like this. Well, my stomach are rumbling too much now.. Off I go to have my brunch.. Enjoy the song...