What the future may bring

If there's one thing I need to learn, one out of the many that i need to, it would be

Giving my best to someone without holding back thinking 'What if it won't work'

I'm actually pretty happy right now, I do not know what the future may bring. I could only *ehem* fantasize and dream :) But I do hope that it would be much better than today. Sometimes for me life is like playing jackpot, we put our self out there to bet on for a happy future. There would be times where we win a little, lose a little, lose a lot and then *ring a ding* we won the first prize.

But as far as my nearly three zero *ehem* years of experience, it's frightening actually. Cause I know for sure that there's those times where thing we never expect happen. And when it happen, it feels as if the whole world collapse under your feet. And you're left hanging on trying to stay afloat and breathing becomes so much harder and we start to think "Why?"

I'm very lucky that I am strong and that I'm blessed that I have my family and friends with me. Though they might not know what was happening to me. But knowing that they care if they know is more than enough for me. And it is so true that, when you give all your trouble to the Lord, when finally we stop trying to make things to work following our way and leave it to God hand, things start to change. And it really did for me. This year I learn a lot and got to know someone so precious to me now. And I pray to God that the future will be much better than now.

ps: Finally on my first vacation in this year out of Malaysia... Hope a) I won't get sick like usual b) everything will be ok, no unexpected thing coming up c) no fight, had a bad exp of fights (last prev time with someone else).