I have a wish that cannot be fulfiled

I have one wish that could never be fulfilled. Sometime I wish that I had a brother or sister that is near to my age, and I sometimes wish that I have an older brother or an older sister. Cause the responsibility is less than being the eldest.

It's hard to be the eldest, to whom to you show your "manja" side, well I had compensate to "bermanja" with my younger sister. And it annoyed her to the end :) and somehow I enjoyed tremendously annoying her.

Also trying to discuss my problem with them is too ackward with them, the closest to my age is 7 years apart. So how can I talked with him my problem, he would stare blankly at me if I tried to discuss any of my problem with him. If I had someone near to my age, at least I don't have to lower my topic of the day with them and they could at least know and be a little interested with what I'm talking about

Tsk... Mom why didn't you get pregnant the minute you finish your pantang with me :)