Feeling like a dried tomato....

I am currently feeling so drained out these past few days since coming back from Malaysia. Maybe the bad eating habit, no exercise lifestyle, problems that's been left unsolved, battling with some personal issue and the stress of works are finally catching up to me.

At this moment, I'm very near to banging my head at the wall beside me. As if that would help, but it's a very tempting thing to do... What I wanted to do right now is to just sleep the whole day without anyone, any call, any emails, and any people bothering me.

But what to do, I could never be able to do that here. That is the one thing that I hated staying in a hotel, you could never get the privacy you needed and wanted.

Really need a break from everything, peoples, sounds and etc etc... So who's up for a vacation in Bali? Mwahahahaha

Point to ponder

Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

Btw, to all of those that will be celebrating Chinese New Year... Have a marvelous and merrier Chinese New Year... Gong Xi Fa Cai....

What can you pack inta a camera box

Hooray, I'm back from Pakistan from last saturday, well I was only able to get online today... So here i'm back to blogging... So where am I now of course at.....



Cheap what, I'm obviously homeless each time I go back to Malaysia. I've stop renting, well cause I obviously don't want to pay RM400 a month for letting the "org bunian" to stay in the room as I'm gonna be at Pakistan until April. Might as well be homeless, stay at the hotel and claim it as the company expenses each time I come back to Malaysia *evil grin*.. Genius isn't it? Mwahahaha...

So what did I wanted so badly to write that, as sleepy as I am... I drag myself to blog about it... Well how many thing's you can pack into a camera box...

Hehe... Well the answers:

1) A pair of jean
2) A box of underwear
3) A digital camera
4) A medium size t-shirt
5) A mini-skirt
6) And a XL size of an adult long sleeve shirt for my dad

*LOL* I myself are very shock that I'm capable of packing the six thing in the small box... Well that's it for tonight... Gotta go rest now, my feet hurts like h*ll. I was walking and shopping like a mad woman yesterday and also today. Shopping like there is no tomorrow, going from one shopping mall to another. I was only so glad to be able to shop at a proper shopping mall... No offense to Islamabad people but you guys seriously need to built a proper shopping mall there...

A sudden weird yearning...........

There comes a time in a person life, where suddenly you wake up in the morning feeling terribly lonely. And you began to realize that you're not getting younger, and nearly all your friends is married, gotten kids, already engage or even planning to get engaged. Also you begin to feel left out, and start thinking "Why"... But my "Why" is not the "Why I'm not also taking the steps", but "Why the heck I'm feeling like this". I'm perfectly happy living the life I'm living right now, enjoying life, experiencing the thing I've never ever would think I would feel, doing the thing that I would never have thought of doing, even going to the places I never thought I would set my foot at. And now, I've got tons of plan I wanted to do within this 3 years, before I touch the three-o milestone in my life.

But why now, is it my basic instinct? I woke up feeling like I wanted to have a baby... Ya, I know sounds "weird", it's not that I wanted to get a man and get married... It's like I want a baby only and not another extra "big baby" to take care of... Mwahahahahaha... My mom would kill me saying this but, if it was possible to have a baby without a man I would gladly do that...

An egoistic guy.. what to do? Castrate him?

I've been neglecting this blog for quite some times.... Not because of laziness or lack of idea... It's the contrary, i was so busy in getting the project design documentation done and also "melayan" the "permintaan" of the clients... And the latter is the hardest part, especially when the client is so damn stubborn.. So what prompt me to blog suddenly, even though the date line is tomorrow?

Well, I suddenly got a chat msg from facebook... A guy who really did hurt me a long long long time ago.. And he suddenly was saying things like:

--> I missed you
--> don't you miss me, don't you remember the time we were together...
--> etc etc bloody stupid thing

Arrrghhhh, bloody stupid of a human being. What did he think that I would be like... "Ooooh ya miss u"... In my own word, "bole blah la lu".. And he had the gall to say "I regret leaving you before"... Ptuiiiiiiiii la...

And you know what's pathetic, when he was rejected... He started to say things like.. "I was only joking, did you believe what I said". Errrrrr, I have never believe it once and never will believe it for my whole life..

And what's more... He had the gall to ask if we could be together again... Mwahahahahahaha, I nearly fell off the chair.... I would be a fool to say yes.

Well... that's one type of a man out there... The type that need to be taught a lesson of painful castration.. *evil grin*